Letting Go...
All of us had gone, will be going, or is going through a life of great change, a life of great acceptance, a life of great pain, a life full of doubts, a life full of confusions - a teen age life. Always, whenever we cross this road, we meet a lot of people and lose a lot too. Some of them, we just came to meet along the road and leave us just like that. But for some, they became a great part of our lives. But we can never say that these people would always be with us. Sometimes we must also learn how to let go.
Sometimes, when we really want something so bad, we always thought that everything�s okay, everything�s going as we want it to be. But sooner or later, with a blink of an eye, we�ll just realize it was gone. And no matter what we do, no matter how hard we try, it will never come back to the way it used to be. And after that we�ll decide of letting go.
Letting go of someone isn�t that easy. Whenever we let someone go, we always hold back because that person means so much to us. Even if it means hurting ourselves, we still keep our eyes peeled just to keep that person beside us. After we�ve let go, we always hope that that person would come back. But sometimes, we have to accept the fact that that person would never come back and wont be the same person that we once knew. We just have to give that person up for us to grow and for us to realize that somebody out there needs that someone more that we do.
Even though life is cruel at times, we still need to wipe our tears dry, face the new world without that someone beside and get up every time we fall and know that that person wont always be there to catch us whenever we fall. Through this, we learn and become much stronger than we were before.
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An article for Literature class.
Silence
I despise you Silence.
Know why?
Because you keep on reminding me
Of the things I wanted to forget.
His touch, his sent,
His smile, his glance.
I wanted to forget him so bad.
I wanted to stop myself from shedding tears again.
I wanted to stop myself from calling out his name.
I wanted to leave it all behind me.
As I keep on denying myself
How I need him so badly.
Whenever you're around,
I always hear only my teardrop falling.
Whenever you're near,
You keep whispering his words -
Those that made my heart beat fast
And those that made it sad and cry.
Even in my dreams as I sleep
You still whisper his name to my ear.
You keep repeating what he did -
How he made my world so bright
And also took with him that light.
As I again weep here in this dark room
Without anyone but you alone.
I'm an Atheist
I'm now a self-declared Atheist or so, I just lost the faith.
I know that this might be a great factor that I could never have him back. But this time, I wanted to be true to myself and what I believe. Until I could cope up with things, I will stop from blogging.
Shatter
It's been a while since my last post. I was alive and very much in love. Until today, my life seems to shatter to pieces...
Sorrowful Heart
It started out when I saw you.
And when we met, then I knew
We would be good friends.
We share the same taste in trends,
And had a lot of things in common.
We became close, from then on.
Little by little, I found these eyes
Wet with tears not knowing why.
I wondered how could this heart cold as ice,
Melted as I break down and cry.
Then I think of what I use to do,
And found that I fell for you.
Whenever you utter her name,
I keep silent while this heart is aching.
If I could fight Love's little game,
Perhaps this heart would stop its bleeding.
Hoping for this heart's tears
Would dry up, as it slowly heals
And everything would end
As this sorrowful heart would once again stand.
Twilight
As I wake up one morning,
Here I am, endlessly drifting.
Not even a glimpse of light,
Nor anyone in sight.
I cried out loud to anyone
Who could hear my voice.
How sad, it seemed like no one
Even heard a whisper through the noise.
I always felt frightened,
Whenever I asked myself, what happened?
I couldn't even try,
To break myself down and cry.
What filled my heart was deep sadness,
Wanting someone to fill this emptiness.
Wanting someone to reach out a hand,
And bring me to an unknown land.
A place what my heart desires,
Full of smiles in each person eyes.
Sweet melodies that they would sing,
As they joined hands to form a ring.
How I longed for that light,
To free me from an endless war inside,
That kept me forever tied,
To a place called "Twilight".
Confused
I'm starting to lose faith, no, I am losing faith in the group I was once so eager to become a part of. I left Taoism and embrace Christianity two years had passed. Now, I think that Taoist are more human than Christians are. Or is it just me... I'm confused.
Someday
Someday
Lyrics by: Carolina E. Harris
Composed by: Mario Antonio D. Sampang
Performed by: The Itentifiers
Copyright 2002
When the world closes down on me
And I'm afraid that they wont see
The dream of being that somebody
Somebody that I want to be
You took me by the hand
And you were the one who understand
And reach your helping hand
All the way
Refrain:
Now the time has come for us to say goodbye
I want to say something from this heart of mine
Chorus:
Cause I... want to thank you for believing in me
for giving your faith and for making me see
Even the time has come
Who knows maybe someday
We will lead the way
Oh! I can't forget... Graduation Day!
You stood by me, and kept me strong
In my coldest days, you made it warm
The way we shout
The things we always dreamed about
* Repeat Refrain *
* Repeat Chorus (2x) *
... Graduation Day! (4x)
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Our graduation song. And no, it doesn't have the typical sad-type melody. It's more like a OPM band type melody. The beat was that of the same with Line to Heaven by Introvoys.
Last Memories
Last Memories
Performed by: The Perfect Harmony
Lyrics by: Nhellhiey and Euri
Music Composition by: Gabby
Copyright 2002
I
When I first walk this long road,
It seems to me it had no meaning.
As if I'm walking forever,
Very lonely and weary.
For an understanding person,
Who gave a life that's full of meaning,
Through all the sacrifices you've made,
You were always on my side.
Chorus
As my friends you're always there,
Guiding me though everything,
Helping me to cross those bridges,
Giving me your love and care.
Here comes a new year of tears,
After those years of happiness.
I love to share my last memories,
With you in this last sweet year.
II
How I wished the time would stop,
Because it's hard for me to say,
All my last goodbyes to all of you,
Who cheered and gave me faith.
Now before we part our ways,
Let me say this once to you,
Thank you for those sweet memories,
We have shared along the way.
*** Repeat Chorus ***
Bridge:
I know deep inside my heart,
How I wish the wind could tell you this.
I�m sorry for those pains I've caused
And hope we�ll be together again.
*** Repeat Chorus Twice ***
Coda:
I love to share my last memories,
With you in this last sweet year...
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This is actually a song but is originally intended as a poem that was never finished until compositions were done. It is also our group's entry for our school's annual song competition and won 3rd place. Since we're seniors, our theme is graduation song.
In the original draft of the lyrics, the following was the 2nd stanza of the first verse:
But on the way I found you
Taking this long road too.
You asked my name and I asked yours,
Since then we've been good friends.
Just Now
It was just now
That I started to realize
That it's been so long
Since I've kept this feeling inside.
Only I knew of the happiness I'm feeling,
Whenever I'm with you.
Only I knew of the pain I'm going through,
When she hurt you.
But who am I?
Do I have the right to tell you?
When everything I knew,
I keep inside,
So that no one might knew of what I feel.
Afraid of you regretting me,
Afraid of them finding out that I love you.
But still, 'til now I can't understand
How you made me laugh when I'm sad.
But I guess I never will find out
Because our path separates now.
And all I can do is to try my best
To forget everything.
But I think I can't
And I never will be able to.
I just hope someday I might see you again.
But before that day comes,
I want to stop myself from loving you
Because I know you'll never do.
Euri (yu-ri) is a unique specie of the 
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