Tainted Soul

A Lost Soul

July 12th 2004 at 9:38 pm. Inscribed under Angst, Rants and Raves.

I keep myself from journalizing these past few days because I don't want to ruin my night ranting about ABE students. Once is okay, twice is much and there will never be thrice. This philosophy also applies to those who call me demonic. (Currently thinking of the granny who called me that a few months had past...)

And so I tell...

I was heading home that time, there was this old lady at the jeepney I road. She was sitting in front of where I am. She had a rosary at her hand, closed eyes and praying. (Yeah I know, praying the rosary on a jeepney is a bit inappropriate.) Then, after she prayed her rosary, she looked oddly at everyone and I deemed, I caught her attention. She stared at me for a while gazing at me from head to toe. (Rude old lady huh?) Then she whispered to the lady beside her, "Look at this child, wearing demonic figures. So many young ones today appeal to the devil and become its children" (Not exactly but the though is there.) She said it whispering but her whispers could be heard by anyone. I didn't want to disrespect her so I remained wordless of the insults she threw me. At that very instant, I wanted to snatch a mirror from my bag and show it to her so as she could see her face and what she holds. I don't have the right to say this because I'm not a Christian but she shouldn't be insulting people when she holds a rosary at her hand and she just finished praying at that. I wanted to shout at her and go on in a rampage while telling her that I'm not. But since I was up brought at a well-bred family, I didn't do so. Besides, I don't know her and she doesn't know me. Why would I waste my time uselessly explaining myself to her?

Now that I think of it, it was really funny that I still go on trying to tell everyone what I have to say where in fact, they don't listen at all. Though they appear to be listening, are they really? Do they comprehend even a bit of what you're trying to tell them? Or they just remain there blindly clinging to their own selfish beliefs. Being cynical sometimes can't be too bad.

Not being a Christian doesn't mean you're into DEMONIC ACTS! I do not do things such as that! I just don't have that "faith" anymore okay? Nothing more, nothing less. Why am I pointing this out? It is because there was this narrow minded person that called me a CHILD OF DEMON just because I'm wearing black, looked pale, and doesn't talk much. Didn't the Christian Churches teach people not to judge people by their beliefs and how they look? Yes, they go to mass, they reconcile, the pray the angelus, they pray the rosary but they do bad things - most of these people are Catholics maybe not all but most of them. Such people DON'T HAVE ANY RIGHT to call me a CHILD OF DEMON. I will accept it more if that person would say, "You going to hell When you die" or "You will not be saved and the you will face great punishments when the world ends." I do bad things, yes, aminado ako dun. But calling me a CHILD of DEMON isn't the proper word for that. The proper term for it is - A LOST SOUL...

Now, I would accept any reactions and comments with regards to this entry. If you believed that I should be called such, prove it to me. If it convinced me, then, I will allow you and all other people to call me that name.